lesson one...

My first lesson in love and relationships. . I always had a problem with giving my all, at any age I believe love was supposed to be real and it was supposed to last forever; But that's not how things turned out. l was 11 or 12 when I realized I really liked a guy. We were both church kids and always around each other, as I've mentioned before I was really involved with church. I was like literally always there. He was my first crush and my first church boyfriend. We always talked and like being around each other, it was so innocent. He was my first kiss. We dealt with each other for about four years on and off. It was so cute but it was crazy like a few other relationships ill talk about. With this puppy love as I called it, we were not right, we argued and it was just too immature. He would ditch me for his friends who picked on me an called me names. I remember one day his friend said "your girlfriend is fat, I cant believe you like her." and he looked at me and said "she's not my girlfriend". We were around 13 and at this age I was going through my "chubby phase", but I was still cute now. That's the age I realized guys were childish and will do anything to please their friends. At the time I didn't know but at a early age I was being devalued and unappreciated. Yea we were young but I kind of hoped it wouldn't be a bad experience but it was the first of many. We ended up parting ways of course but he was just the beginning.

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