I guess this was my life....

Life for me growing up was kinda.... different if you can say. I am the only girl of 5 boys. My birth mother was 15 when she gave birth to me. At the time she was not able to take care or provide for me being she was so young. So adoption was her answer. I was given to her aunt and uncle (my mom and dad). They had 2 older boys which gave me 2 brothers, and my birth mother gave birth, later in life, to 3 amazing boys. My birth father (sperm donor) we haven't really ever talked and it kind of didn't bother me being that I had a loving family to support me. Yea its complicated but its the way my life worked for me. I was a really smart, silly, creative, beautiful, and out going young girl. My parents had me in a lot of activities especially church bond. I dance sing just as well as act, performing in stage plays. It was pretty fun. I stayed out of trouble but never could shut up and keep my mouth closed (mostly in school). My father was strict, I'm the only and baby girl so I knew why but still, I didn't get to do much if it didn't involve church or school. It was my life style for a long time. My mother was sick most of my life. She has diseases call Pancreatitis and Chromes Disease. We were in and out of the hospital a lot. But I literally took care of her, I stayed with my mom always. When I was 12 my parents made a wild decision and separated. My mother said it was for the best. It ruined my life!! Worst thing that ever happened to me. I say that because my life got altered and changed and I wasn't ready for that at a young age. My whole family divided and it was something so painful to see and deal with. I had a very hard time with life after. I still believe in love and real love and long lasting relationships, I took their negative and made it positive in my mind. Divorce isn't something I believe in. Over time I gained major anxiety and paranoia. I knew then relationships don't come and wasn't going to come easy. By the time I was 14 the divorce was final. Over the years things happened and I gained a fear of men. A few traumatic things occurred in my life in the past few years so it was hard to trust anything. Which is why I choose the men I choose. I've had good one I've had bad one. My whole life is based off my crazy family my hectic love life and my amazing career goals. The more you read the more ill open up to you. Just stay with me. Being only 23 I've experienced a lot. On my site expect to see a lot of growth and knowledge.

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